Daily

I get a new pain daily. And at the same time, i get a new idea to
spend my life without some people. Sometimes i feel i can't resist.
But i daily feel that i can live like this. I'll heal soon. Lets see
what happens. Personally i wish not to get indulged in such feelings
again. The reason is that they always end with pain and tears. I won't
chose hell for me once again in front of my eyes!!
Some people are so strong or in other words they are very hard that
they don't care what's happening due to them. So i try not to feel in
my heart for such individuals who caused intense depression for me but
i can't change myself so easily. It'll take time. But obviously i'll
be normal soon. Here i'll quote these urdu lines:

kab koun kisi ka hota he,
sub jhoote rishte naate hen.

Sub dil rakhne ki baten hen,
sub asli roop chupate hen.

Insaaf se khaali log yahan nazron k teer chalate hen.

I know the lines aren't out of world. Neither so hard to understand.
But no doubt very very true!!