Twenty ten ends!

As usual lying on the bed i opened my eyes and searched my cell phone around me. When i found It, i read three texts in my inbox. Both said good morning as usual but the messages were much lengthy mentioning that this is the last day of 2010. Reading them i realised 'Yeah! Its 31st of december'.

A series of memories passed through my thoughts. Like the moving waves. One after the other. Those can't be mentioned because its really not possible to write the happenings of whole year in one post.

If i evaluate the year 2010, it had been very good for me. Twenty ten really gave me many good memories. The most important of them are;

I've done my bachelors :) ,
My brother's engagement <3,
My cousin's nikkah,
Happily spent first year of my sister's wedding <3,
One of my best friends has become a mother,
My cousin became a mother after 4years of her marriage,
A brother (cousin) passed the written exam of CSS,
A friend's attitude turned very positive for which i did alot of struggle & wait with patience,
The maturity in me,
I explored many areas in Pakistan where i never visited before,
Had a very good time with my friends and family,
Last but not least the increase in income of my father! :)

Its very natural phenomenon that positive and negative things keep going side by side. There had been many negative impacts on my life in this year as well. That i obviously can't ignore i.e
My GPA in the last semester was the least as compared to my all other semesters,
I've spent the first year without my sister living with me,
I once again had an asthma attack after about 2.5 years,
I'm living away from my friends with whom i spent 4years,
A fuss created in the family by a feeling-less man,
The veil removed from a friend's face whom i considered my best friend but still i love her,
I lost one year of my young life :p,
And most important, the news that my father has stones in his kidney and he needs to get operated. . . .

Besides all these things, i'm very satisfied from my life (except my father's health). Good & evil, positive & negative, advantages & disadvantages these all make a LIFE. The days, weeks, months, years & decades makes a life & it keeps going no matter what happens to whom. So we should try to make little moments important, happy and full of life. Because we're only given one life to live. It depends on us how we prefer spending it.

At the end i pray on the last friday of the last week of the last month of the last year of the first decade of the first century of second millennium brings alot of happiness and excitement in the future of our lives. We all spend better days than ever. Remain contented and most of all, our Country comes in one of the developed countries in the world. All the issues get resolved specially electricity, pollution and poverty.

Helplessness

At this time of night, there's no purpose of writing this post but my mind is filled with tension so its better to write my feelings somewhere. Although i'm finding no words to express my feelings, but still i'll do.

The overall concentration of my thoughts is occupied by a news i heard today. The news that my father needs to get his kidney operated for the stones in it!!!

About twenty days ago, i was informed that my father has a stone in his kidney. And it was too shocking for me. But i was told so normally as if this is something very usual. Although it might be, but it really trembled me. Being so concerned for him, i started insisting him to go to some kidney specialist. But he was waiting for the 40th day of his bhaabi's death. So that he gets free totally and then start his cure. He did what he wanted. Finally after the 40th day, he went for the x-ray. Which revealed that he has 6stones in the kidney. 1big and 5small. This news was again a shock. Now today, he took the reports to the specialist & he said he needs operation. The stone is too big that it can't be operated with laser. Further he explained that if we want to have the best operation, we should go Karachi. Where the best kidney doctors are available. . .

I know my father. He wont go there. But when i heard this depressing news, i felt so helpless. Its really very hard to see our parents suffering and you can't even comfort them!!

I wish he gets well soon. I'm pushing him to get operation done asap. But the tension is that he's already diabetic patient. Had a bypass operation too! Don't know what will happen now. I still have those painful days in my mind and another such situation aroused. . .

For me, a father is more important than my mother. Not that i don't love her, but the only reason is my attachment with him. Its true i'm more sensitive for him than anything else in the world. He's my hero and my role model. I can't see him tense or in pain. And the concept of losing him is the worst fear ever.

Its a request to all those who read this post to just pray atleast once for my father. Only for some seconds. It'll be the best gift for me ever. Thanks

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