I faced many problems due to remaining so much ill. Now at the end,
i'll mention the disadvantages or the drawbacks of my illness.
First of all the biggest disadvantage caused was when i was in class 2
(second standard) and i couldn't go school to appear in my final exams
and finally the drawback was that i had to repeat that class. I
remember my parents did so many efforts but my principle refused and i
had to repeat that class :( :( :( i lost most of my friends. My
company was changed. And my new classmates thought that i'm not a
capable student so i'm repeating i.e. I failed my exams. Some of them
used to taunt me so much and i didn't like it.
Secondly, as i've mentioned earlier, i lost the charms of many
functions :( i missed many tours. Most of the times, i used to remain
ill so i couldn't enjoy the functions. Couldn't dance at mehandis. Had
to wear so many sweaters even with fancy dresses. I can't forget the
time when i was left in sheikhupura only because i was ill :( and all
my cousins went Murree, Azad Kashmir and many other hilly areas of
Pakistan. I was so jealous when i saw the snaps :(
then another problem is that i've got so many moles on my skin due to
extra exposure to sunlight :( i've got a skin problem. My moles keep
increasing now. I was always kept in sunlight throughout the winters
to keep me warm.
Another assumption is that most of my friends and family members say
that i gained weight because i had been taking very high potency
medicine at a very early age and then i constantly used them. Although
i don't agree to this assumption but it really might be true that the
medicine made me fat :-P
another problem is that i always face the problem of my hands, feet,
eyes. They keep burning. Remain very hot. My eyes are unfresh although
i drink too much water but medicines burnt me. My eyes are yellow :(
i cant do fashion in winters :( i need to very heavily cover me.
Whenever i see my childhood pictures, i get depressed because all my
age fellows, class mates, cousins are wearing very nice dresses but
i'm wearing caps, jackets everywhere so i don't like them :( I cant
drink much milk, eat rice, potatoes, yogurt, pickle etc etc. Specially
in winters. When i drink milk and sleep, my all veins, neck, throat,
nose everything gets blocked!! I believe it that such things really
create problems for me :(
I need to remain very very careful. The advantage of remaining sick is that i'm more careful for my health e.g. I can't sleep untill or unless i don't keep water beside my bed. Its a habit from childhood. Because i had been suffering from the severest bad cough that at times i couldn't wait for someone to go and bring water for me. So i always keep water with me or i can't sleep comfortably. In this regard i'm thankful to ayesha baji she noticed it only one that i've kept water with me and from that time, whenever i visit her home to spend a night, she does it for me. I hope i'll succeed in killing
this disease :-)
