Why

I'm in my bed. Lights are turned off. I'm constantly thinking as well
as planning somethings in my mind. Sometimes when i observe the things
around me, i really wonder. Its really hard to digest somethings. What
life was and what it is!
To be true, these days i'm not much happy with my life or the
happenings around me. May be the reason is that life is becoming
serious. I'm turning mature. So i'm trying to digest everything with
smiles all the time. I've stopped telling others about my worries. My
sharing is 1% as compared to my past. I really scared. Once i used to
share each and every aspect of my life with a friend but since i've
lost that, i don't like disclosing the things to everyone.
I've a point of view that when we keep someone very special. Up above
everyone. Everything, and after a long time, you realize i meant
nothing to him/her, its much painful. Or even for a person like me,
its difficult to digest that for the next person, there were many
individuals having the same rank as mine.

Nowadays i'm spending hard lifetime. Finance isn't my problem. I never

tense due to any such problem. The only thing that hurts me is the
attitude and behavior of others. Not all others. Obviously my friends
and the people around me. Whom i love, care, respect and keep special.
And unfortunately, i'm nothing for most of those people. Not that i
want to be the only one in their lives but i feel noone needs me but i
need everyone. Don't know why!!